Present Day

This is me today.  Fifty-eight year old trans-man.  When I started this journey 10 years ago I was in a long term relationship.  That relationship changed two years ago.  We are still friends but it is not the same.  We live separate lives now.  

I've been spending a lot of time thinking about being alone.  I would like to be in a loving relationship, but I fear it wont happen again.  Maybe it is not to be.   I wouldn't change my journey, I couldn't have continued as I was.  I have a lot of lonely days and nights.  

I don't get out to meet new people.  I'm disabled and have no transportation.  I am not involved in the local LGBT tribe.   I have no friends out side of my ex and my room-mate.  My room-mate is a friend and people think she is my wife. (we let them, to much trouble to explain it)

I was going to college on-line for photography but I messed up and flunked algebra twice.  Still taking photographs but not taking classes anymore.  I wanted to use photography to help me get top surgery.  Now that is on hold again.

Tonight I am just using my journal, These Shoes are Too Tight, to write how I am feeling right now...  Lonely.